I’m not one to typically ask for prayer from those outside my immediate circle of influence – unless it’s something I’m excited about. But when it comes to my personal failings, I typically keep that close to the chest and well-guarded. Who wants to let the world see their inadequacies, right?
Well… I do need prayer. I need a lot of prayer. As I mentioned in a Facebook post today, I went to the doctor’s office. I said it was a routine checkup (and it was), but to be honest, there were a couple of things I needed to talk to him about.
I am stressed beyond stressed. I am having headaches on a daily basis, I’m sleeping fourteen hours a day (and it still doesn’t feel like enough), I’m gaining weight and have no discipline for dieting, and my depression (despite medication) seems to be rearing its ugly head again. Doctor agrees with me – it’s likely stress. I finally scheduled my first vacation in two years which begins next week. (Sweet!) I’ll still have other stuff that I have to get done, but sleeping in each morning and not being on a time schedule will be a great relief.
We still have financial issues here, and my wife’s accidents from December are still wreaking havoc in our lives with insurance companies not wanting to pay for medical bills, lawyers not wanting to take our case, etc., so we could certainly use some prayer for all of that to be resolved in some way.
I could still use prayer for my career… lots of irons in the fire, and I’m to the point of being maxed out with my time commitments. I know that sounds selfish, but I truly believe God cares about ALL aspects of our lives – and if it’s a concern to me, it’s a concern to Him.
Also, I really need prayer for my health/dieting again. I think I mentioned to you before that I was doing well – lost almost 30 pounds… but I’ve gained ALL of it back (and then some). I really need to get my mind and heart right again. The discipline just completely disappeared, and I’m paying the price!
And… my spiritual life. This is the area I really don’t want to share, but feel I must. I know I work at a Christian radio station and I post Christian material all day on my website, Facebook, and Twitter, I work for a Christian ministry, but the fact of the matter is that I struggle greatly when it comes to my spiritual life. I struggle with prayer. I do not have a daily quiet time. I’m surrounded by God’s word all day long in my career so I get kinda cold and indifferent with it, ya know? I’m desensitized to it. It’s really hard for me to get excited about anything anymore when it comes to my faith. I should be yearning to go to church every weekend. I have an amazingly awesome church. Instead, I would rather sleep in and lounge around watching Netflix. I haven’t been to church in several weeks. When I do go, it’s out of a feeling of obligation.
I need a rejuvenation. I need a refreshing. I need another word that begins with the letter “r” that I’m too tired to think of right now.
So, during your prayer time the next few days – please add me to the list, won’t you?